(Source: fearlessknightsandfairytales, via jesuskin)
She believed, and so she was.
Valentines Day.
My boyfriend is absolutely the most amazing guy in the world. He bought me flowers, and a STAR! it may seem like a stupid gift to most, but I love it so much. Not many people know but I am a total star freak. I love laying out and watching the stars and feeling so small compared to the rest of the universe. Anyways, he bought it and names it after my grandpa, Oh what a wonderful gift. <3
We laid in bed and talked for quite some time, which is my favorite thing that we do. I love love love laying on his chest and hearing his heartbeat. I love holding hands and feeling as though no one else in the universe exists. That’s how I feel with him.
Invincible.
“ Trust your heart if the seas catch fire, live by love though the stars walk backward.
E.E. Cummings (via cryptogirl)
I honestly wish I could take everyone’s pain away. I’d rather have everyone’s misery than have people miserable who deserve to be happy.
(Source: blazedhigh)
Awkward.
At my brother’s house. Literally sitting here, diong nothing. I hate that this has to be weird. Everything feels weird lately. Every little thing. Jacob seems to have no time for me anymore. His mom is getting meaner and meaner as time wears on. I know she doesn’t like me, but I feel like I’m going to be around for quite some time, so she should probably get use to me.
I wish I wasn’t so god damn nice sometimes. I just told my boyfriend that he’s allowed to hang out with other girls.. what am i thinking? I don’t want to hold him back or anything. and I can act like it doesn’t bother me, but it hurts so bad. So im at a cross roads. His happiness or mine? Of course I’m going to choose his.
sigh. relationships are hard. what do you think I’ll do with myself when we break up?
I’m an extremely jealous girl, that’s all there is to it.
I hate feeling insignificant and like i’ll never be like all of the beautiful girls he looks at.
Starbucks.
Sitting in this chair, looking at my incredibly handsome, spectacular boyfriend. But i feel as though I’m about to burst into tears. Why does life have to be so god damn hard?
Tell me why I wake up and feel like I’m going to have to struggle to make it through the day. Why can I only feel right when I’m in his arms laying and nothing else exists. Why can’t I forget? Forget the things that make me so sad. The things that have ruined my spirit? Why is it that I care so much but I don’t get anything in return? I feel so dead and the only thing keeping me from doing it is him. him. him. him.
Jacob Hader doesn’t realize it, but he has my life in his hands. literally.
we’re going on a walk, i’ll be back later.
The Voice. Shel Silverstein.
“ All men have stars, but they are not the same things for different people. For some, who are travelers, the stars are guides. For others they are no more than little lights in the sky. For others, who are scholars, they are problems… But all these stars are silent. You-You alone will have stars as no one else has them… In one of the stars I shall be living. In one of them I shall be laughing. And so it will be as if all the stars will be laughing when you look at the sky at night..You, only you, will have stars that can laugh! And when your sorrow is comforted (time soothes all sorrows) you will be content that you have known me… You will always be my friend. You will want to laugh with me. And you will sometimes open your window, so, for that pleasure… It will be as if, in place of the stars, I had given you a great number of little bells that knew how to laugh.
Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, The Little Prince (via tranquillum)
(Source: floralibus)
